....................................................................P.S.

I'm engaged!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

it's been too long.

5 months and things have changed.

up...up...and AWAY!

new year tomorrow!

i shouldn't have stopped writing.

This is going to be a l o n g week. But last night was cool. Me and Raye met up with some amazing people at Lor's, but we had to leave early to go grocery shopping. We ended up only buying magazines, salmon, and bread. But we got free coffee at Kroger!

Girls night on August 10th at our place. No boys allowed!

I'm in serious need of a hair makeover.

I caught my first bass last weekend when we visited my dad in Mont Eagle! It was pretty amazing, except for all the bats flying around near our heads.

bleh.

And I bought my first cookbook!

Something that made me laugh yesterday at work....

Me: "Hey [child's name] what in the world are you doin with your finger in your nose? You diggin for gold?"

Child: "No...I'm just a diggin for boogers..."

haha...

And so....

the sun still shines. and the rain still comes. and the day turns into night. and everything still keeps happening. Every day I search my memory and try to remember every single little thing Papa B ever said to me. There are probably only two or three men in my entire life that I've looked up to more than him. Me and Raye talked about him all the time. Lor and Logan had a rock to stand on. 43 years is not enough. it's not enough. grief comes in waves, so what can we do? we cry together. we hug each other tight. we promise that this life is worth living. we go together day by day and arm in arm, sometimes in silence, sometimes in laughter. sometimes in tears we look to each other and know we are all feeling it. grief. "why" is always on our minds, and "what if..." comes in a close second, for me at least. emotions. anger. compassion=to suffer with. so we do. and we have. and we always will. and so...we are here. we are still breathing. God is letting us survive.

even today, this life is worth living.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

http://www.save.org/

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